He is really just miserable Hikaru is here by now. There were some initial moments where he was glad to have his brother around but GOSH that feeling has vanished. He'd much rather be miserable and missing him than miserable and worrying about the inevitable moment when Hikaru dies in a competition. He's also dreading having to explain any of the shit he's been through to him a lot. He is going to keep lying to him for as long as he can, but he knows that can't last forever. There are too many people involved in the things he's trying to keep quiet for it to stay secret forever, and he's going to hate every second of whenever those secrets get revealed. :')
He just wants Hikaru to stay safe forever and isn't really sure what he's going to do when Hikaru gets hurt, but he knows it won't be pretty. And he's afraid of what Hikaru's going to think of him when he reacts to that.
Hikaru finds out about Shark's tattoo on Kaoru right now; how does that go?
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He is really just miserable Hikaru is here by now. There were some initial moments where he was glad to have his brother around but GOSH that feeling has vanished. He'd much rather be miserable and missing him than miserable and worrying about the inevitable moment when Hikaru dies in a competition. He's also dreading having to explain any of the shit he's been through to him a lot. He is going to keep lying to him for as long as he can, but he knows that can't last forever. There are too many people involved in the things he's trying to keep quiet for it to stay secret forever, and he's going to hate every second of whenever those secrets get revealed. :')
He just wants Hikaru to stay safe forever and isn't really sure what he's going to do when Hikaru gets hurt, but he knows it won't be pretty. And he's afraid of what Hikaru's going to think of him when he reacts to that.
Hikaru finds out about Shark's tattoo on Kaoru right now; how does that go?